The Autopig
Sidebar
to Mental Firewalls
and Models of Synthetic Telepaty
Allen
Barker, April 2, 2002
This sidebar is
about autopigs. It has also turned out be a grab-bag of miscellaneous
thoughts that did not fit elsewhere in the series, such as on classified
research and multiple-model reasoning. It is not currently
linked in from the rest of the "Mental Firewalls" essay or from the
MC:TT&P
web site. The reason for this is that it is more personal
than the other parts of the essay series. It describes specific
sensations and harassments that I have experienced, and events in
my life. I have nonetheless decided to make it public in the
hope that it might help other victims as well as clarify to non-victims
what victims must deal with constantly each day. If nothing
else, I hope I will lead by example in coming out and publicly saying
these things which many people have experienced but few will openly
talk about. Note that I am only describing one particular
style of mind control harassment and its sequelae here. Other
victims will have similarities and differences depending on what
was done to them and how they responded to it. I can already
hear and anticipate the armchair psychologists, the apologists,
and the "skeptic" scientists who foolishly assume that Ockam's razor
defaults to the lies of a political police state grounded in propaganda
and harassment. Nonetheless, here it is.
Please read the essay series for more information about the technology and
political situation. Please read Part III for details of what an autopig
is. It is basically an AI-like device hooked up to a machine which can
send voice signals to a person that only he or she can hear. Certain
autopigs can also incorporate sensor data measured from a victim's brain and
body to infer something about the victim's thoughts and subvocalized
speech. When a live human does this rather than an AI device -- like a
commentator at the victim's private radio station of harassment -- I call it
"the realtime idiot." While there might be many legitimate and helpful
consensual uses of such devices, they are currently used to torture domestic
citizens. That is the "application" this essay deals with. (People
inclined to dismiss this whole sort of scenario out of hand as being either
technically or politically unworkable should read about the plans almost
implemented for a UCLA Violence
Project in California in the early 1970s.)
Don't forget the known and documented victims who are still ignored and the
crimes which are still covered up -- decades later in many cases -- when there
is no possible national security risk except embarrassment to the government
and increased scrutiny of later allegations of mind control abuses.
There is plenty of uncertainty to have to deal with, but in a larger sense
what we already know and can document is bad enough. The society, press,
justice system, politicians, whatever you want to call it simply will not deal
with the issues even of known and documented mind control crimes. In a
sense, the coverup implies the continuing crimes.
The truth may get you harassed
Whenever I present personal details of my own life I hope they will not
damage my prospects for a court case, since I have not had the luxury of
retaining a lawyer. On the other hand, when you cannot get an
experienced and qualified law firm to take your case in the first place that
does not really matter. Perhaps my writing this will help in that regard
by further bringing out the abuses. (And of course many of the details
of the situation are matters that I will only discuss with my lawyers, or
perhaps with legitimate investigatory committees.)
In the current propaganda climate there is the unfortunate issue of the
recent movie about the mathematician John Nash. This is especially
annoying to people like me who are mathematically inclined and who work to
expose mind control abuses. [I have a mathematical paper coming out
soon, in fact, which was delayed by the Sept. 11 events and what I felt almost
as my minuteman duty to keep watch on American freedoms and liberties in the
aftermath. This is not to mention the delays due to the "usual" ongoing
harassment.] Now, after the Nash publicity, even when prominent
mathematicians or scientists speak out about mind control crimes they can be
more easily dismissed by the public as just brilliant in one area but
nonetheless crazy. Of course I congratulate Nash, assuming he really was
naturally schizophrenic, on dealing with his illness and surviving a culture
that is vicious to the mentally ill. But often those claiming to help
the mentally ill are really out to perpetuate the current corrupt system and
force it on more people. At least when people start to see through
propaganda it boomerangs... They realize it was there all along and see
the manipulators who have been hiding behind it.
Politically I have not backed away from "my controversial stand against
domestic torture." It is basically this political content of what I
write that fuels attempts to further smear me and keeps the issue of mind
control torture hidden. But such practices are documented to have
happened for years in this country. That is, I am accusing the
government of culpability in the continuation of abuses which are documented
to have occurred for years, but which are still covered up and which the
psychiatric community is still in denial about participating in.
Psychiatry is supposed to apply the principles of psychology to heal
patients; psychological warfare applies those same principles as a weapon to
inflict damage on or manipulate people. I observe what happens, analyze
it, and write about it. I am one of the most rational people you would
ever meet, though a bit reserved and overeducated (and neither of which I
apologize for). Of course as a human being under torture I now also
experience all of the well-documented general sequelae of torture, as well as
those sequelae specific to mind control torture.
I have written it all as it is. If I were going to make something up
I would make up something more directly believable by people in the
propagandized mainstream, and something which perhaps it would realistically
benefit me to say if it weren't all true. On the other hand, once you
learn the real history and present of the nation it does not seem so
unbelievable after all -- the lies in the media each day seem
unbelievable. I have kept some personal details of my private life
private, for obvious reasons: They are no one's business but mine.
The filthy pigs who commit hideous crimes always try to drag a victim through
the mud and try to demean the victim by stripping away all privacy. They
hope the voyeuristic "audience" will enjoy seeing the victim thrown to the
lions and will ignore the hideous abuses. To repeat again, there is no,
and can be no possible excuse for or rationalization of torture. The victims
need to have the same sensitivity shown to their private lives as rape victims
only recently gained with laws such as rape shield laws.
When research "goes black"
Some of the technology involved in mind control abuses "went black" in
early 80s after a brief period when parts of it could be openly published and
discussed. One example is voice-modulated microwave. Another
example seems to be EEG-to-word correlation technology, or more generally
technology for thought inference from sensor data. The coverup implies
the crime, in a sense, when credible victims cannot have their complaints
investigated because of an official lie that such technology does not even
exist. Not only do they not have their complaints investigated, their
harassment is increased by witting and unwitting people in a society set up to
maintain the deception at any expense to human rights.
When an area of technology "goes black," almost all sources of funding for
such research dry up, and publishing of papers in the area essentially
stops. (Revealing FOIA documents definitely stop coming out.)
People who continue to work openly in the area may find that "bad things"
happen to their careers, or their personal lives. There may even be
disinformation efforts to discredit those publications already out, as Robert
Becker described in his Cross Currents book. Of course secret
research and development does not stop when an area "goes black." If
anything it goes black because it worked and more research is planned.
Certain academics in fields of study related to the now "black" one may tend
to arrogantly assume that because there is no published work coming out, the
phenomena in question do not exist. They do not see how by moving the
troughs around their fields of study can be shaped and directed. When
there is no funding for a particular area of study, open research largely
stops. The true purpose of funding is also concealed by
compartmentalization and abstraction of the relevant problems or by re-casting
the problems in other molds. At some level, this is just the way
academia works, especially when it is hugely funded by government or
government contractor companies.
The problems arise when human rights get trampled in the process.
This occurs both in terms of academic freedom -- which is the freedom of
thought, speech, and publication -- as well as in the harm to human health and
well-being that can result from deceptive scientific and other research
work. This includes work in humanities as well, for example history,
philosophy and ethics. Researchers who are personally harassed or have
their personal lives intentionally disrupted are the quite direct victims of
human rights abuses. If the manipulators want their cake, they should
not be allowed to eat it too. Students should not be lied to and
deceived about their prospects in a particular field, only to find years later
that they are not allowed to apply their talents and that they have been
nothing but straw dogs all along. It is one thing just to not be able to
find a job directly related to your field; it is quite another to have your
personal life destroyed because of your research.
The autopig never tires
The particular harassment device discussed in this essay is the
autopig. Autopig harassment occurs in all states of mind. It does
not matter if you are awake, asleep, alert, tired, drunk, sober, etc.,
although when mentally tired it may tend to increase (or at least annoy you
more). It does not depend on where you are. You can travel 200
miles away and find that you are being harassed with the exact same autopig
harassment phrases (though they'll try to make you think they are all
local). It happens when you try to work, to think anything to yourself,
to converse with others, have sex, use the toilet, etc., no matter what you
are doing. Sometimes it will subside, or you will be distracted and not
notice it, but soon enough it will jolt you again. It can help to drown
it out with something like loud music (though certain employees at certain
radio stations may then cointelpro you through the between-the-lines banter,
commercials, and song selection). The autopig voices are the same
whether you hear them in the middle of the night or in the middle of the day,
so it does not seem as if there are "shifts" of different, recognizable
realtime idiots.
The main essay discussed ways to verify pure externals, and the discussion
here is concerned with pure external autopigs and realtime idiots.
Victims do need to consider conditioned internals, but for true victims that
is a symptom rather than a cause.
Since the autopig voices do not have names (and cannot use calculators) I
sometimes name the autopigs. It is anthropomorphizing a machine, so use
some caution. The human brain wants to anthropomorphize any
voice-interpretable data it receives "in the mind," but these days it can just
as easily be badly done AI (or perhaps soon better-done AI) with voice
synthesis. The human brain wants to interpret and respond to auditory
voice signals it receives internally. But if it is indistinguishable
from an autopig, treat it as if it were an autopig (or an autopig-enhanced
realtime idiot). If it comes in on the rape channel it does not really
matter whether it is a person with a microphone hooked up to the transmission
device or a fully automated torture device, except for the purposes of
evidence analysis. The person who financed, authorized, and turned on
the autopig machine is as guilty as any realtime idiot at a microphone.
[Psychic believers, see below, but I have never once gotten any useful
information on the rape channel, and a whole lot of harassment. So even
in the unlikely case that part of the phenomenon is "natural psychic
telepathy" I would still treat it the same way and try to locate the
harassers. Conspiracy to commit torture is still there. This
is a preview of a model-independent conclusion.]
I named one autopig Retard. Retard is not really mentally retarded or
seemingly even human. (I do not blame truly mentally retarded people or
children who don't know any better.) Retard has one phrase he repeats
over and over, "your masturbation technique" or "your masturbation technique
is x" or "x is your masturbation technique." The variable x in the
description, if it is there, tends to come from a very superficial grammatical
analysis of previous verbal thoughts. For example, I might be trying to
write a computer program and every few seconds Retard would say "that is your
masturbation technique." If I thought about compiling a program it might
say, "compiling a program is your masturbation technique." That's all it
ever says, over and over, hence the name Retard when I anthropomorphized that
autopig. It does not occur just when doing a particular activity like
programming, it is anything and everything that you might do or that might
cross your mind. If you were to waste your time giving the phrase a
semantics it would mean basically that to the Nazis anything you do that is
not what they want is masturbation (and that to the rapists masturbation is
"naughty"). For a time, Retard was the autopig with one of the loudest
signals and highest Bergeron pulse frequencies.
The frequency of autopig harassment varies, and depends also on one's
sensitivity to consciously noticing it happening. The autopigs also come
in at different volumes. Typically, though, the rate for noticeably loud
distraction autopigs (Bergeron pulses) might be set at about one every thirty
seconds. After 100,000 times or so, it is important to be aware of the
damaging conditioning effect of such repetitions. After such torture the
brain is highly sensitized to that particular phrase, and there is a tendency
to hear it even when it is not there. For example if a similar phrase
were spoken nearby or modulated onto the autopig signal, the victim will tend
to hear the strongly conditioned signal instead. Random noise signals
with a similar rhythm or pattern can also trigger a "false positive" because
of the increased sensitivity of the mental "scar tissue."
Classifying autopigs
One way to classify autopigs is by the level of coupling with your thought
process. That is, some autopigs are independent of your private thought
process and some are strongly coupled with it. An independent autopig
can be implemented much more easily than a coupled one, since you only need to
do a send rather than both a read and a send. The difference is like
that between a microwave voice projection device alone versus what Delgado
called a stimoceiver which can both deliver brain stimulation and telemeter
information out.
Autopig coupling with the thought process can be noticed either in a
recognizable pattern of when such phrases occur, or by way of a variable x in
a phrase which incorporates part of your previous mental "inner voice"
thought. The coupling is often realtime, in the same sense as if you
were having a live conversation with someone. The response is that
quick. (This may point to UAV platforms, low-orbit satellite,
cellphone-like networks, some other fairly local signals, or programmable
autopig chips -- at least for those responses with coupling faster than a
second or so. Assuming light speed limits, a realtime idiot could
probably not be completely on the other side of the earth or using
geosynchronous orbits for this effect.) Of course real people would have
names and could converse about varying things rather than just repeating the
same stock phrases over and over and over.
The autopigs can also be classified according to the semantics of the
signal modulated onto the cattle prod and sent to you on the rape
channel. Remember, though, to only consider the semantics as part of a
data-collection evidence process. The signal is not there to help you,
and the modulation is intended to cause you psychological damage or manipulate
you. In analyzing the signal, consider what the psyop intention of the
NLP-like manipulation signal is. The realtime idiots and autopig
programmers are always looking for a wedge, for a way to get you to start
listening and believing them. For example, they'll play at "helping" you
or sympathizing with your problems (that they caused). Then they'll slam
you again. If you're not careful you may start to think in terms of the
idiotic crap they condition you with, and before long they'll have you jumping
at shadows. They'll project suggestions at you and when you consider it
they'll criticize you for even thinking it. They'll instill triggers in
you, trigger you, and attack you because the trigger worked. They'll act
as impostors and impersonate anyone and everyone you ever saw or interacted
with if they think they can trick you. They would tell you when to use
the toilet if they could. The word "belie" is an interesting one.
It means "to show to be a lie" (though sometimes it is used as if it meant
something like "underlying"). When a realtime idiot claims to be your
"friend," the very channel he or she is nonconsensually accessing you on
belies that assertion. When they psyop you and insinuate that something
you have not even made public describing the surveillance is wrong, their
having the information at all tends to belie that claim.
The saying is, "if the shoe fits wear it." Anyone but you who
knowingly accesses your thoughts without your consent and maintains the
conspiracy to conceal the fact is a Nazi pig. This is true
especially if they use this knowledge to manipulate or harass you or to
personally profit. It is a conspiracy to commit torture, or
collaborating with and aiding and abetting such a conspiracy. When
thinking to yourself, in your mind, you are the only non-Nazi there.
Anyone else has on a pair of self-fitting shoes (or self-fitting
jackboots). If they are not raping your brain they do not hear you in
the first place. This is basic logic and common sense. As a mind
control victim, when will you start believing otherwise, believing them when
they try to insinuate it is some benign conspiracy or even flattering to
you? You will believe it when they un-torture you. When zapped by
an autopig or realtime idiot signal -- or any other external like Nazi
feedback in a newspaper -- too many people seem to only consider the semantics
of the signal but not the signal or signal channel itself: its nature, source,
and implications. If the signal itself indicates acts of rape, why would
you dignify it with any semantics at all? Of course sometimes when the
external is on an otherwise legitimate channel like conversation, email, the
newspaper, etc., you need to consider the semantics to even realize it is an
external. If you do analyze the semantics, what is the actual
intention? Usually to manipulate, torture, and to inflict
psychological damage. This may take a toll on you even if you just
"monitor the Nazi traffic" in order to gain information, like Turing trying to
help sink a Nazi U-boat.
Given this proviso about even considering the semantics, though, one way to
differentiate autopigs is essentially according to the IQ behind the
modulation. A level 1 autopig is just some unvarying phrase repeated
over and over, just a drip drip drip of Chinese water torture. It could
be any phrase at all, in the same way that you could paint a stick any color
and achieve the same effect when you hit a person over the head with it twice
a minute. There is also what I call a level 1 autopig function of one
variable, which just takes some snippet of your previous mental dialogue and
plugs it into a boilerplate phrase. For instance, if you thought about
writing a paragraph, it might say "I recommend you do not write a
paragraph." This is a specific instance of "I recommend you do not do
x." A level 2 autopig is slightly more clever. It shows some
memory or you or your situation, and while its manipulation method is still
quite transparent, nonetheless it shows some thought behind its goad or
intended distraction or manipulation. I have gone up to level 3 or 4 in
classifying them, but you rarely see a 3 and almost never a 4. At the
higher levels you start to blur into the realtime idiots and tend not to have
good enough data to differentiate them from harassment AI.
Autopigs can also be classified according to whether they exhibit any
memory. A stateless autopig is memoryless. It just repeats the
same phrase or phrases regardless of what happens. A stateful autopig,
though, has a memory process and uses past information to select or construct
the phrases to bombard you with next. This might be thought of as
something like a database of whatever information has been gathered about you
from various sources, including previous brain raping. A stateful
autopig might even be initialized with a set of data taken from another victim
and chosen to fit your torture vulnerability profile. Level 1 autopigs
tend to be stateless, while higher-level autopigs tend to be stateful.
Survival of the shallowest
Consider the collection of people who are selected for mind control
monitoring and harassment. What this group is may range from everyone
down to so-called dissidents, scientists, test subjects, etc. Who will
survive and "thrive" in the mind control system? First of all, there are
the unwitting victims, in their "ignorant bliss." We will only consider
witting victims. Next, there are consensual victims or collaborating
nonconsensual victims. They may foolishly believe that they can
permanently hand over the controls to their brain and mind to an unaccountable
group of people. Then there are people who do not care at all about
their most intimate privacy or for their own free will. Such a person
thus accedes to being essentially a human robot, controlled externally at any
moment. He or she can have no privacy and no secrets at all, and thus no
intellectual property or trade secrets either.
We will assume that very few people fit this mold and consider which
witting nonconsensual victims will be most affected by the torture. NPT
was designed to help victims avoid this, but it is a hard process for people
to train themselves to act as if they believe NPT. This is
because all their previous societal training does not prepare them for having
their brain raped by some of the most vicious pigs on the globe. It also
does not prepare them for learning that a good percentage of their fellow
countrymen are Nazi pigs who will gleefully drive them to suicide, exploit
them mercilessly as a slave, or just sadistically enjoy their torture as
entertainment if they can. You need to develop an understanding of
pathological liars and a very strong stomach. You also just need time
and practice in understanding your reactions to torture and trying to
un-condition yourself. You will always retain mental scars from torture,
which are analogous to a bodily pain left in an Auschwitz victim from a
vicious kicking by a guard (except that this Auschwitz has not yet been
liberated). So we will assume that NPT is an idealization that one can
train oneself toward but not perfectly achieve.
So, which people will be affected? First, anyone with any sort of
conscience or habit of ethical self-examination is at a disadvantage.
This is because the torturers tend to take any such thought as prime
harassment material. The idea is that if something bothers a person, or
at least if they wondered about whether it bothered them or not, then
according to the "positive feedback torture algorithm" that is what should be
fed back to the system. As mentioned in Part III, the idea is like
driving a dynamical system at its resonant frequency to purposely destroy
it. Thus people who are completely amoral or sociopathic will tend to
avoid this effect.
Any sort of thoughtful consideration of whether you are bothering someone
or imposing is also seized upon in the same way. Such a concern is
instantly turned into an accusation that you actually are bothering the
person and that they are angry at you, etc., when actually you are less
likely to be because you paused to consider it. Is my stereo too
loud? He plays his stereo too loud and the neighbors hate him.
Does she think x about me? She thinks x about you and hates you.
They use this technique to foment personal fights between the victim and
anyone around him or her, and to isolate the victim. It is an old
cointelpro tactic with new technology. Usually the harassers are just
feeding back any fears, misperceptions, or perceived weaknesses they thought
they detected and do not really have any information except for what they
raped from the victim. But sometimes there is feedback with verifiable
information that is highly unlikely to be coincidence. If the victim
only ever thought about the information this is a pure external confirmation ,
and if the victim talked about it in his or her home at least a confirmation
of ongoing surveillance.
A related thought habit that tends to be turned against the victim is what
I call "the asymmetry detector." Whenever you accuse someone else of
something, or do something to another person, you consider for a moment as if
the arrow were pointing the other way at you. It is something of a
hypocrisy avoidance circuit or a part of some sort of golden rule empathy
process. The problem is that when you consider your own shortcomings or
vulnerability to the same thing you provide the harassing torturers with a
prime source of harassment material to feed back against you. This
occurs even when you do not detect a symmetry indicating any real, meaningful
hypocrisy, but only considered something. (But watch out for false
asymmetries and false symmetries, especially those based on superficial
linguistic and grammatical thinking and the purposeful ignoring of proportion
and scale.) The asymmetry detector is nonetheless still a useful thought
pattern. When you know there is a real asymmetry, like between a
torturer and a torture victim, it helps you to avoid reacting to the goads and
taunts which assume a phony symmetry.
The next group of people who will tend to suffer under mind control
harassment are the non-shallow thinkers. These include creative thinkers
and what might be called deeper thinkers. Often these people's
livelihoods depend on their thinking process as well, so they have the added
violation of having their livelihood affected and the fruits of their
intellectual and creative labor stolen directly from their minds. The
harassing pigs are not called realtime idiots for nothing. They rape
some instantaneous, shallow shadow of your mentation and then are presumptuous
enough not only to violate people like that but also to assume they know what
the person is thinking and what the thought really means. Really, is
that what I mean by that?
[Speaking of intellectual property, in the US, you can work to educate
people about literal domestic torture happening and some people will
try to silence you by "turning you in" for supposedly violating copyright
law. These people do not care the least bit about the intellectual
property being raped and stolen by mind control and surveillance. To say
the education effort is non-profit is a mild way to put it, and if this
doesn't fit the spirit of fair use doctrine I do not know what does.
Victims under torture and surveillance who are trying to stop it also do not
worry too much about technicalities like this. It is just another psyop
to the torturers, something to try to lord over the victims. And by the
way, I will take down any item if and only if the copyright holder contacts me
on official channels.]
Consider an example of presumptuous realtime idiots when you are
considering various hypotheses. The English language does not have much
of a subjunctive mood, and so the distinction of things counter-to-fact or
hypothetical is implicit rather than explicit. This is not to say that
victims need to think in any "correct" grammar or publicly accessible
"language," of course. But anything you would think, regardless of
whatever weighting factor you gave it or how you considered it in your thought
process, would be seized upon as if it held its shallow surface meaning.
Suppose you were free associating, like a search algorithm down a property
list in an association graph (to use an overly symbolic lisp analogy).
Of course you are going to come up with some ridiculous things, some bizarre
things, and some politically incorrect things. So what? But the
pigs will seize on anything you think, no matter how it fits into your thought
process, and instantly zap you with commentary, clicks, or jolts. What
this does is to condition you in your free association to anticipate being
zapped if you should think a "bad" thing. This can make you leery of
even thinking freely, or it can halt your thought process and leave you trying
to "explain" the "bad" thought that they "caught you at." It also can
tend to make the "bad" thought recur more often precisely if you try to
avoid it. This is mind control in all its connotations. And of
course the thought is "bad" only as judged by a torturer whose intention is
psychological damage and control. No one can rightfully judge the
presumed thoughts in another person's head, most especially not Mengele.
The mind is sacrosanct in this regard, and the nonconsensual violation of a
victim's mind is an incomparably greater offense than any thoughtcrime that
passed through a victim's brain could ever be.
Let me digress briefly to discuss the methods of instilling trauma
conditioned triggers in victims. When they catch you at a "bad" thought
or something they think bothers you, they quickly associate a symbol with
it. The symbol is something connected with the thought, or something
related to it. This symbol is the new trigger to a trauma conditioned
memory. They will quickly (so you remember) try to reinforce this symbol
to cause you trauma. They want to ensure that you both strongly remember
the symbol and associate it to the trauma experience. The original raped
thought or experience from your mind (or from your home under standard
surveillance) will be implied and insinuated between the lines, using the
symbol. This sets up the new symbol association for the trigger.
Of course part of the trauma is just that these pathetic pigs raped you and
then went to so much effort to harm and manipulate you, i.e., that some people
in the world hate you like that and have the capability to violate your most
private moments. Nonetheless, trauma is trauma. The trigger will
then be purposely embedded in various places where you will see it, to keep
you traumatized and to keep reinforcing the trigger. It will be worked
into the between-the-lines harassment subtext used against the victim and
among the harassers. It may also be programmed into the autopig and used
by the realtime idiots. Of course coincidental occurrences of the
trigger will tend to cause the reaction also. The Nazis will also
regularly try out potential triggers on you to see if they can get a
reaction. If so they further zap you with the trigger and condition it
in more if they can. Once the victims are sufficiently conditioned with
a few strong triggers, they can be sent into trauma just by the purposeful
application of a trigger. Thus the triggers can be spread around to
everyone in on the harassment. Even children of sick torturers can be
taught how to trigger a victim, similar to how a regularly whipped strong
black man held as a slave had to defer to white children and keep his eyes
averted.
You could barely finish any complex thought if you listened to the
harassing pigs, because halfway through the idiot pigs presume to know what
the thought is and what some part of it means. They then have to add
their sneering pathetic and distracting comments. But at least for now
victims cannot avoid "hearing" the pigs, so you can only try to train yourself
to ignore them and continue thinking like a human being rather than a baboon.
If you have any sense of humor or like to make jokes, watch out. A
good sense of humor, if necessarily black humor at times, can help a victim to
survive. It can also be turned against the victim like almost every
other aspect of normal mentation. The joke process tends to be a fast
process, because it has to be for repartee and conversational joking
around. Jokes also tend to often involve "bad" thoughts and things like
sex and farts. You often think of all sorts of jokes, amusing yourself,
but only say a few out loud. But the same process as described above
tends to kill the joke process. Some moron seizes on a fast but failed
joke that produced something bizarre and then they jolt you. This can
cause an aversion to the whole, healthy, joke process in the first
place. Later you may see your failed joke -- that would ordinarily have
just amused you and floated by -- "reviewed" by rapists as if it were your
serious thought. To reiterate, the value judgment "bad" here is imposed
by sick torturers, and I only describe it this way to help victims understand
and deal with the torture better.
There is also the assumption that your mind is one-track, apparently like
that of the realtime idiots. They cannot imagine that you could have a
two-track mind or a five-track mind or more. Part of your mind is
thinking about a friend of yours, another is noticing that your leg itches,
and another is noticing that there is a sexy woman on the TV. There is
also what I call the monkeyscope, which is the ongoing verbal process
describing things and commenting on things. There is nothing inherently
wrong with the monkeyscope; it is your inner dialogue in "the monkey
language." This private language tends to be similar to your public
monkey language such as English or Spanish, though it certainly does not have
to be. It means only what you know it means -- if you even choose to
analyze any meaning into it at all. An active monkeyscope can be useful,
say, to a writer as his or her writer's voice, working at describing and
analyzing the world in language. (There is also the possibility that the
monkeyscope dialogue is the predominant aspect of what is violated in brain
rape.)
What happens when all of these tracks get flattened out to an idiot
rapist's single track? There is also a natural tendency for the brain to
explore associations between the separate tracks. This associative
memory process is hardwired in the brain, and can be a good source of creative
ideas. The same sorts of problems as with other free association
thoughts arise when these associations are raped by the Nazis or when the
victim anticipates a cattle prod reaction based on them. Similarly,
semantic priming is the tendency for thoughts and things that you have
recently thought about to be associated with whatever you are currently
thinking about, to create another new association. This is a temporal
sort of association, and again it may produce a ridiculous new thought or it
may produce a useful one. When a thought gets cattle prodded it tends to
become even more "primed" for later semantic priming associations.
The pigs leap at any sort of thought you have that might be incriminating
in the slightest way to you or anyone you know. Apparently they store it
in your "permanent record in pigville," no matter how long ago it happened or
how trivial. They will later take these things and try to "lord it over
you" if you let them. If nothing else, they provide prime distraction
material and material to annoy you. The knowledge that they are
violating the confidence of everyone who ever confided in you is also part of
the torture. Then there is the usual tendency to think, "oh no, what
should I not think right now?" which of course causes you to think
it. This also penalizes people who think in a minimax sort of way rather
than some averaging sort of way, since they will be floating by worst cases as
part of their thinking.
All of this explanation above is an example of how the mind control torture
can force the victim to step back and consider his or her own thought process
to see what the harassment is doing and how it is doing it. Some people
may want to do this, though certainly not under these conditions, but
for others it is just a painful waste of time where they have to consider
every natural thought process that otherwise would just float by while they
lived their lives. Nonetheless it may be necessary for some victims to
attempt to understand and deal with the sequelae of the torture.
So the harassment process "favors" the shallow, conventional thinker.
This is of course not to say that shallow, conventional thinkers should have
their minds violated any more than anyone else. Shallow, conventional
thinkers may even be more manipulable than other people. Mind control
torture is an abominable crime when committed against any human being.
Multiple-model reasoning
Multiple-model reasoning refers to the process of maintaining several
different models of reality and evaluating one's decisions and conclusions
relative to all the models. The interesting point here is that some
results hold in all reasonable models, or in all the models that you are
considering. A "result" in this case means a conclusion or an action to
be taken. Some results may require a slightly different interpretation
to hold in the different models, but others do not even require that.
For example, consider a decision to hold torturers accountable, relative to
both a pure realtime idiot model and a pure autopig model. You may need
to hold the operator of the autopig responsible in one model versus a
human realtime idiot in the other, but the chain of culpability higher up
would look about the same. A main point of Part III was that the results
described there are largely model independent, as are those in Parts I and
II. Notice that you do not necessarily have to believe all of the models
you consider, and you will have different weightings even for those models you
do consider tangibly likely. It can be useful to consider models that
other people hold but which you do not, especially if the same conclusions
follow.
Let me briefly mention a few models that have been put forward to explain
mind control phenomena. I am excluding politically expedient phony
reality models. Like torture victims in South and Central American
countries have faced for years, the expedient models always claim that
anything but actual torture is what happened to the victim --
preferably with a smear toward the victim thrown in. That aside, the
models for mind control phenomena include technical methods of harassment,
mental illness natural or induced, hypnotic suggestions of mind control and
mind reading (perhaps sleep-conditioned with voice-to-skull), EM sensitivities
mistaken for harassment, and some sort of natural psychic harassment.
There are also the various mixed models. While there are some mentally
ill people, we will not consider them here because it should be clear by now
that there are indeed some real, live mind control victims in the
population. How many and exactly what all has been done to them are the
questions that need to be considered. The main essay discussed protocols
and data analysis techniques for detecting pure externals. Once you know
damn well that there are pure externals, the number of reasonable models
shrinks to only a couple.
Always keep in mind that investigating mind control phenomena is more like
game theory with a hostile and vicious opponent rather than like natural
science studying nature, and various ruses and deceptions are to be
expected. Suppose you show that a particular autopig exists by detecting
its "send" signal. That does not imply that the autopig is stateless or
independent. That is, you may have just detected its send mechanism but
not its read mechanism. Even if you were to trace the signal to, say,
some military radar that "just happened" to demodulate into a speech pattern
in certain victim's heads, that by itself does not rule out other
sources. It only implies a "mixture model" containing elements of
both hypotheses, especially when you have good data collected over years that
the autopigs are definitely stateful, strongly coupled, and pure
external. [Also note that mind control victims under EM harassment in
particular might be more likely to develop general electrical
sensitivities. As torture victims, all witting nonconsensual mind
control victims will tend to have sequelae such as PTSD hyperalertness, etc.]
Natural telepathy as an example of an alternative model
The sidebar on
psychic powers provides a good example of multiple-model
reasoning. I consider the technological model alone to be "the
standard model," by the way. With technology you could fake the psychic
business on unwitting or deceived people. In fact, the term "synthetic
telepathy" was apparently popular in military circles at one time to describe
microwave voice projection devices. Assuming an old-fashioned Nazi
conspiracy with advanced technology does not require an assumption of psychic
powers and a corresponding conspiracy over centuries to conceal them (or
powers which are so weak they do not account for the effects).
Feel free to skip this section if you do not care to consider psychic
ability hypotheses. It may be worth considering simply because that is
how the technology seems to many victims (or will later seem to
consensual users of the technology). Recall also that the government is
known to have spent millions of dollars researching and attempting to
weaponize supposed phenomena such as "remote viewing" (at least that is what
they claimed the actual research was). I only consider an auditory sort
of telepathy here. The possible downside is that by discussing this
model it will be more likely to be used to distract from technological sorts
of mind control crimes, for example by provocateurs posing as "nutball
psychics." Nonetheless, I'll discuss it anyway, especially since the
issues of technological mind control do not go away or change, as we will see,
by assuming psychic powers. It is also important because psychic
believers are a population vulnerable to technological testing, whether or not
such powers exist.
Since my personal religious views already came up in Part III, I will go
ahead and mention my religious views with regard to psychic powers. From
my own religious point of view, I consider such powers, if they exist, to be
makyo. Makyo are phenomena that may exist, and experiences that may
occur in meditation, but which are side tracks from Zen practice. You
can dabble with them or enjoy them if you want, but be careful, do not attach
to them, and get your focus back to meditation practice. People are of
course free to hold their own religious views. If such powers do exist
and are being used to torture people, though, they cannot simply be ignored or
concealed. If I believed in demons I would consider the torturing pigs
as manifestations of them.
If you suppose that there are "natural" psychic powers then it follows
almost certainly that the same mechanism has been reverse engineered by now to
include the technological model. [At the least they would have been
weaponized by military and intelligence-trained psychics.] But the
"natural model + technological model" is really like one and a half models
rather than two, because the "natural psychic model" strongly implies that the
technological model exists as well. In the "natural psychic" model, the
powers are natural human abilities that have been there for millennia, but
great-great-great-great-grampa on down kept it a silent conspiracy.
Under this model, some significant but unspecified fraction of the population
is "sensitive" and can "hear" the silent thoughts of another unspecified
fraction of people who are "senders." These groups presumably overlap to
some extent. We are assuming here that the powers are significant enough
to compare to technological results in terms of their effects. Thus
there would surely be many witting psychics with these significant powers,
rather than just unwitting ones or ones with only vague, unprovable and
untestable powers. But also under this model, the days of the
"gunslinger" psychics, alone in psychic space with their powers, are
over. Technology has almost surely reached that realm by now.
Pandora's box cannot be closed again.
Assume the "natural + technological" model. In this case you have the
natural psychic model with superimposed technological signals. So any
person is potentially receiving both types of signal at any time. Given
how many ways there are to technologically project voices to people's heads,
there would also be the possibility of targeting specific voices to specific
people that others on the "psychic walkie-talkie" system could not
hear. So you would not know what harassment was really going on if you
were just getting natural psychic signals, except any which occurred on the
natural psychic channel. The Cameron-style psychic driving torture with
autopigs is actually even more horrible in this model. This is because
it would result not just in the victim's private mental torment, open only to
him or her and any direct mind-raping torturers. It would scar the
victim's whole "psychic interface" with the resulting tendency to lock into
strongly conditioned phrases. This would be open and on display for any
"sensitive" person to hear anywhere the victim went -- including the harassing
jerk "sensitives." All the concomitant feedback issues would also be
there, when the victim knows this is what is happening to him or her.
This is of course in addition to all the other sequelae of torture.
In the natural psychic model you would also have the usual bell curve of
abilities, with some people witting and some unwitting. You would also
have some people who could not "hear," but perhaps could send, and others who
could hear but not send. So you would have a situation where there were
essentially blind people to exploit. It would be like a conspiracy to
keep certain people "publicly naked" so they could be ridiculed and
exploited. Keep them from covering themselves up (blocking the signals,
etc.), rape them, and then blame them for it.
One always has to consider how a psychological operation (psyop) could fake
a "psychic event." To someone who believes in psychic abilities, any
technological mind control manipulations will tend to appear to them to be
psychic phenomena. That is, if they are unaware of the technology they
will interpret the experiences as manifestations of psychic phenomena --
though not necessarily benign ones. Consider "the restaurant game" where
a vicim goes to a restaurant and soon some of the diners around him or her
seemingly start to blatantly comment on the victim's private thoughts.
Assume it is truly blatant and that the victim is not just reading
interpretations into things -- which is unfortunately a tendency once one's
mind truly has been violated that way. (Victims may have the tendency to
run cross-correlation analyses comparing their own thought processes and lives
to external signals and occurrences, because the assumption of independence is
known to no longer hold. This can be difficult for most people,
not to mention hideous, stressful, and distracting, and if not carefully done
may lead to some false positives. But the victim needs to know.)
Is the victim broadcasting psychically, or by whatever mechanism psychic
phenomena happen? Are the diners picking up subtle body signals and
using their intuition to infer the victim's thoughts? Are all the diners
soaked in the same wide-field influencing wave and thus seem to be thinking
and talking about the same things? How about when the diners use known
triggers and symbols and are obviously trying to inflict psychological damage
on the victim, to "freak him or her out"?
In a technological sense, if we assume the realtime idiot technology, this
would be an easy op to carry out. They know ahead of time where the
victim is going, and presumable have agents with equipment allowing them to
individually "hear" the victim's private mentation. The agents may even
be consensually monitored in the same way as the victims, or may be
nonconsensual victims turned collaborator. The other diners might even
be other unwitting victims being influenced by a "man in the middle" at the
underground base orchestrating the whole sick scene. These examples just
illustrate how difficult it can be to discern the exact details of how
the harassment is being implemented. Nonetheless, it is quite clear to
the victim what he or she experiences and how vicious and violative it
is.
How rare is a sender? In an area of a million people, what are the
odds that people everywhere are listening to one person in particular, for
long periods of time? Why is it not a jumble of noise? If senders
are rare, how might they be exploited or harassed for political gain or to
alter the political climate? How likely is it that a microwatt or so of
signal energy from a human brain can propagate for hundreds of miles?
That seems more likely technological, though there is a small chance it could
be some rare gift/curse. I tend to ponder the "natural psychic" model
because so many people seem to believe it (or fall for it), and because it
keeps me busy after I have already thought out the standard technological
model too many times. And the implications of its being true are
staggering, even worse than the technological model alone.
What follows from such a conspiracy? How many aspects of society turn
out to be blatant lies, human rights abuses, and knowing exploitation?
How many people were purposely driven to suicide or other desperate
acts? How many perfectly sane people were locked up and forcibly
medicated? Why do people stand for it? If this model is true then
many people know the harassment to be the case even if they do not say
so. Why do they maintain a conspiracy that is not there to benefit
them? The conspiracy of silence benefits only the exploiters, and makes
it possible for there to be victim after victim, while everyone looks
on. It would also act as cover for any technological developments which
mimic or reverse-engineer psychic powers. There is no sign that such
powers make people especially bright or empathetic or compassionate.
Just the opposite, really. If this is what is involved in the harassment
it seems to make people with "the secret gift to hear brain senders" into
venal, sadistic, thieving idiots who cannot think for themselves. What
human being repeats "that is your masturbation technique" over and over for
months on end? What results from a culture that does nothing but harass,
torture, and drag down its own people constantly? But that is about
enough consideration of "natural psychic" hypotheses for this essay.
[If such psychic powers exist, why let them have it both ways? If
they harass, manipulate, and torture people with this ability why let them
also keep it secret so it "doesn't exist"? That "nonexistence" is what
brings out the Lord of the Flies behavior in people who think they can
get away with it. Why not slam them with three back on the same channel
that "doesn't exist" if you can, or better yet in the real world. An eye
for an eye assumes that an eye actually exists. You can turn your other
cheek all day long but a Nazi will continue the same exact atrocities.]
I do not believe in "space aliens among us" and purposely try to avoid the
whole topic because it has been used to distract from mind control
crimes. This paragraph will be an exception. There is a good case
to be made that there have been purposeful efforts to cover up military
abductions by making them appear to victims as space alien abductions.
This would have allowed the victims of government experiments to be dismissed
with ridicule. And although it means "unidentified flying object," the
term UFO tends to leap instantly to space aliens and, mysteriously, seldom
evokes discussion of classified technology such as aircraft in development
which -- surprise -- fly at places like Area 51. Nonetheless, in a
multiple-model sense, it does not really matter if humans alone are torturing
citizens or if humans are collaborating with space aliens to do it. The
models are not exclusive, there is just an added assumption of alien visitors
in one. The government is still culpable and is the party to hold
accountable. Government secrecy in general is an obstacle and people
subscribing to either model should want to work against excessive government
secrecy as well as to work to stop harassment, torture, and recriminations
against citizens. Space alien believers are citizens too, and should be
independently concerned about the government's mind control crimes and
coverups.
Measuring potential autopig signals
In this section I briefly discuss measuring the physical signals by which
the autopig-type harassment operates. First, an example of a potential
signal detection. One day, while trying out a particular set of new
tubes in my amp, I got a repeating noise pattern through the guitar amp that
sounded a lot like the autopig I named Retard. I cranked the amp
up loud with the guitar connected and did not play anything. It was a
static sort of noise that came in bursts which sounded like a mechanical
version of the clearer Retard voice I would hear in my head. Was it the
signal from an electronic Retard send? I don't know. I should
probably have recorded it, so someone with a less conditioned ear could hear
it, but I did not at the time. [It is easier said than done to have the
presence of mind to gather technical data while under literal torture, even
for people with some technical training. Especially when you know that
people with the delusion that they live in a free country will tend to dismiss
even the strongest evidence you gather.]
Did other people in the area hear that same signal? That would be an
interesting piece of data, but when people are afraid to talk about such
experiences you cannot compare notes like that. That is one reason I
have written this essay. [But psyop agents will lie pathologically, so a
double-blind sort of protocol would be more informative.] Retard's
amplitude is now lower -- but the signal is still there -- and I no longer
live in that area.
I mention this because a real investigation of the complaints of victims
would involve as one component an analysis of the EM signal space. Most
victims do not have the money or the expertise for these sorts of
investigations, however, and the harassment can easily be stopped while
measurements are being taken. Even with the funds for a commercial
investigation, certain advanced bugs are essentially undetectable except with
the most advanced and classified technology. Among other things, an
investigation would involve looking for the send and receive methods, looking
for any sort of implanted devices that might be the method in some cases, and
studying victim reports for various clusters, etc. The investigation
would also look for suspects with the means and the motive to commit the
crimes. But, in the current political situation, what investigation
could victims trust or believe in? They have been so shamefully abused
for so many years that they know the way the coverups work and the depths to
which many of their fellow countrymen will sink in order to continue a
practice that is nothing but organized torture and exploitation.
The day something changed
"The day something changed" occurred in early February, 2002. It was
almost reminiscent of the movie Groundhog's Day. After months of
the same autopigs over and over, day after day I decided to go into "echo
mode." Each time I heard an autopig I would mentally repeat it, followed
by "what's next." I literally did this for hours. Next, I started
actually saying them out loud, followed by "what's next," each time a clear
one would come in. After months of conditioning by the same tired
autopigs, this actually changed something. Shortly afterward there was a
large increase in realtime idiot action, or at least some new material was
finally loaded into the autopig. They also turned up the autopig
loud on me when I was driving in my car. Much louder than I had
heard before, almost like conversation level with someone else there, except
that the source does not seem to be the ears but more like the top of the
head. This might have unnerved me years back, but at this point it is
just good data and knowing that I at least made "the beast" have to
respond. Mostly it was Retard and an autopig that was just starting to
become a frequent Bergeron pulse, "philosophy professors are so naive."
[An example that it does not matter what color you paint a stick that you hit
someone in the head repeatedly with. The color stupid may even have some
advantages for harassment, as mentioned in Part III.] There also seemed
to be some "filibustering" on the channel, like I had been doing at times,
though how to interpret this is model-dependent. What if many victims
all simultaneously tried to fill up the channel with noise? Again, model
dependent, but it may send a message to the underground bunker pigs.
Unfortunately, a few days later even more changed. My wife and I
finally ended our marriage after the stresses of seven years of such
torture. Of course I don't blame my soon-to-be ex-wife. She stuck
with me through years of hell, and we had many good times despite the
harassment. But finally it was too much. As I described in Part
III, this harassment, violation, and exploitation is not something that can be
just ignored; it would be like accepting slavery. The autopig is just
one part of the torture experience, which includes both low-tech and high-tech
components -- but even the autopig alone would still constitute torture.
I don't lightly compare things to a Nazi death camp. [A realtime idiot
had to sneer "yes you do" right after I wrote the previous sentence.]
This violation of the human mind really is that bad, especially because
it is set up so it can be denied and the victims dismissed. In 1996 I
went on a serious hunger strike to protest such abuses, after all. I
ended it mainly because I worried that when they finally got me in the
hospital, their Soviet-style psychiatric staff would come after me and try to
discredit me and lock me into that political damage control system. It
is not that I especially wanted to die or would not miss my loved ones, but
that the constant rape and harassment is an intolerable form of torture.
Those who have suffered similar harassment, read several of my essays, or just
know the vicious truth know that the torturing pigs will harass you from your
engagement, to your honeymoon, for anniversary after anniversary, until they
finally manage to destroy your marriage. Then they will sneer at and
criticize how you deal with your divorce and the harassment goes on.
Anyway, after being in "echo mode" on "the day that something changed," I
wrote out all the autopig phrases I could recall having recently heard (some
of which happened as I wrote the list). So this is a "snapshot" of the
autopig from around that time, near Charlottesville, Va. The more common
ones, with large histogram counts, are in red. If you wrote a program to
randomly repeat these phrases, with the red ones occurring more frequently,
you would have a fair approximation of the autopig. Consider what the
manipulative intention is of some of the phrases. Others are just cattle
prods applied repeatedly to the brain.
- "no opinion" [started after I began
telling Mengele his opinions were worthless, esp. religious ones]
- Third World [autopig that makes a general or specific threat of
violence]
- "your masturbation technique is x" [x
is any sort of thinking or phrase; I named this autopig Retard]
- Sick Pig [this autopig suggests various sexual sorts of
distractions and harassment]
- "x is your favorite thing to do to people"
- "how important are you to these people"
- "yesterday's newspapers"
- "x years ago" [distraction autopig, x
is some integer that varies]
- "you're a graduate student"
- "you volunteered for this position"
- "it's very important that you [do|don't do]
x"
- "you just [won|lost]"
- "it's your own fault"
- "we'd do anything for you" [a general feel-good lie]
- "touchdown" [demeaning, like they manipulated you]
- "they lost control of you"
- "he's an original thinker"
- "guarantee"
- "guarantee you x"
- "you're representing yourself very well"
- "Leonardo" [distraction, while trying to work on a math paper]
- "it's not affecting him" [heard quietly, after I ignored them]
- "he wrote the book on x"
- "I recommend you [do|don't do] x"
- "you are good to me"
- "they'll defeat you"
- "we'll represent you"
- "we'll defend you"
- "gezundheit"
- "we're out of time" [like a TV show ending]
- "university student"
- "put your hands on your head" [attempt to demean by physical
command]
- "your histogram is a piece of shit" [as I wrote down the number of
occurrences of an autopig phrase]
- "it ain't gonna work"
- "no attention to detail"
- "attention to detail is pretty good"
- "you're an intelligent species"
[perhaps testing for susceptibility to space alien script]
- "juvenile detention center"
- "that improved you"
- "you're our favorite subject" [like experimental subject]
- "you'll be very [successful|unsuccessful]"
- "he'll like that" [I named this one
"Report to the Boss" autopig, though the pronoun has no antecedent]
- "we're even"
- "they can smell you"
- "you overplayed your hand"
- "I'm right across the street" [implying the neighbors are the
harassers]
- "you know you don't have to do this"
[when working on a math paper]
- "philosophy teachers are so naive"
[this one has become very popular in the histogram recently]
- "we did that in high school"
- "what is your name?"
- "that saved you"
- "spoken like a true patriot"
[trauma/anger conditioned because it first happened during "intimate"
conversation with my wife]
- "great answer"
- "I can smell it"
- <place name> [random place name, West Virginia, Florida,
Philadelphia, etc.]
- "now it's not gonna happen"
- "you're gonna be put in prison"
- "they're going to arrest you"
- "one percent of the population" [or n
percent]
- "Allen bought it"
- "I don't think so"
- "beautiful religion"
- "beautiful religious experience"
- "you've got wisdom"
- "cell phone" [simultaneous with when I
think the word "self" to myself]
- "the oversight committee is looking out for
you"
- "the underground railroad is going to get
you"
- "you haven't lived here"
- "you've got a good friend"
- "they don't know about _______" [fill-in-the blank interrogation
phrase, one of many]
- "your brothers and sisters"
- "schizophrenia" [i.e., the voice in my head said I was crazy]
- "that's old"
- "he went to UVA"
- "I'll do anything for you"
- "you understand these people"
- "weapons of mass destruction"
- "this conversation is just about finished"
- "frankenstein"
- "Allen Barker said x"
- "you're number two" [trauma conditioned
from cointelpro religious persecution]
- "I don't believe x"
- "I owe you an apology"
- "you're [really|not] important"
- "they were mean to you"
- "that's what I was thinking"
- "one that will tell it to you"
- "prove it"
- "we'll be anything you want us to be"
- "about time you said that"
- "that doesn't have anything to do with you"
- "heart attack" [an example of Third World, trying to induce panic
and fear]
- "'spoken like a true patriot' doesn't work anymore"
- "just like his dad"
- "getting used to it"
- "conspiracy"
- "pitter-patter of little feet" [goading at genocide]
- "I'll give that to you"
- "you're a religious leader"
- "you obviously don't have any idea what you're doing"
- "everybody knows what you're doing"
- "you're under surveillance 24 hours a day"
- "that girl worships you" [conditioned to my thinking of my wife,
later tried as a trigger]
- "good job"
- "your military training"
- "you're in remote control"
- "he's your landlord"
- "you need some privacy"
- "The United States of America"
- "that's something you weren't supposed to know about until you were 65
years old"
- "brush your teeth" [attempt to demean,
I named this autopig Red Cross]
- "they won't listen"
- "you'll do"
- "doesn't know what he's getting into"
- "he's more important than he looks"
- "read 'em and weep"
- "you haven't made a mistake"
- "self important" [when I think "self"]
- "hit a home run"
- "he didn't have to prove it"
- "we'll try a reverse-spin conversation in a moment" [heard
quietly, "behind" the other voices]
- "you'll get your majority"
- "low opinion of himself"
- "you're an old man"
- "you've got good insight"
- "the 11 o'clock news"
- "I can't believe he didn't know about x"
- "oh, they got you"
- "I'm trying to get some sleep"
- "he'll make fun of you"
- "he is a nice dog"
- "you'll live" [I sometimes then think,
"like I'm asking you"]
- "you'll get old"
- "it's not the government"
- "I recommend you do not tell anybody"
- "go to bed"
- "dude, I'm sorry"
- "they'll admit that"
- "we were just having fun with you" [yeah, with trauma conditioning
and torture]
- "have to give that to you"
- "great guitar"
- "go play your guitar" [usually to
distract me from doing or thinking something else]
- "they're all talking about you"
- "we're proud of you"
- "your website"
- "because that's all they do around here, mess with people's minds"
- "I'm beginning to agree with you"
- "you embarrass them"
- "you've come home"
- "slow down"
- "walking tall"
- "I don't believe you're talking to me like that"
- "everyone can hear you thinking"
- "you've matured"
- "you're a good man"
- "you're an old-timer"
- "you've got no competition"
- "at the hospital"
- "no intention of x"
- "you were going to be famous"
- "a <adj> personality disorder" [<adj> is for example
"beautiful," and lately they like "insightful"]
- "he was a university student... we'll give him an A" [spoken
between harassers]
- "he worships you"
- "they're making fun of you"
- "you let us know"
- "a protest singer"
- "breakthrough"
- "we're with you 100 percent"
- "you'll learn"
- "too late"
- "good medicine"
- "it's good that you know"
- "you're pushing the limits"
- "you're from a good family"
- "I thought you didn't know about that"
- "microwave" [planting a suggestion of
the technology they want you to think is being used]
- "you'll get stronger"
- "we aren't through with you"
- "old insider"
- "contradict yourself too many times"
- "he's broken"
- "you're left-handed"
- "your right hand"
- "your left hand" [apparently trying to insinuate that the
torturing autopig is just another part of the brain]
- "give me an example"
- "having fun with your walkie-talkie?"
- "we know where you're coming from"
- "we forgive you" [like Mengele the rapist can forgive his victims
for anything]
- "they all make fun of you"
- "they're just children"
- "you're doing a nice job"
- "commander in chief"
- "professor"
- "needs to get used to it"
- "long time before you saw that"
- "how old are you"
- "forgive me"
- "why they don't kill you"
- "you're playing dumb"
- "I hear what you're thinking"
- "you've got a good brain"
- "they were that mean"
- "they were brutal"
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